By Maggie Marshall
I’ve been thinking about how to find our inner authority and stand up to bullying. In most areas of the world, at the moment, we are being tortured and bullied. Just look up the manuals and processes for these practices. I am not going to list them here.
I know what it is like to be bullied. I have recently realized that it has been a pattern in my life, and I would suspect it has been for many of us.
I didn’t have a horrible childhood, but I was strongly encouraged to follow the rules and not speak up. Remember that old saying, “A child is best seen and not heard”? It was the same in school. I can’t remember how many times I was banished to the corner or out in the hall, mostly for speaking without permission.
Actually, this theme followed me for much of my life – express myself, stand up for myself and get put down. I had some small victories, but now I need to dig deep for a different essence to emit, one that is stronger, more assertive and more thick-skinned.
Release Outer Authority
Society is bullying us, and has controlled us for centuries on some level. It’s just more evident now. Are we allowed to gather, to speak, to hug, to pray, to be creative? No. They have taken away our freedom to be human. They are bullying us into complying with their global authoritarian vision of the future. I know this is hard to believe and accept.
So what can we do? How can we stand in our sovereignty when there are so many ramifications if we do – fines, imprisonment, and loss of livelihood, to name a few? It’s tough. It takes courage, even in small ways, to go against society. It means doing what feels right in our core in spite of the restrictions, and in spite of our fear. It means finding new ways of navigating and negotiating.
How do we find our inner authority in all this?
We need to be aware of the patterns in our life and break them. We need talk to people of like mind, and even get together with them. We need to explore all sorts of emotions and even experience despair. Some days I don’t know which way it is going. It can feel like everything is pointless and impossible. Or it can feel like death is not such a bad development.
We do need to learn that death is not the end. It is not the worst thing that can happen. I have been doing a lot of work around losing the fear of death and trusting that it may even be an exciting adventure. Don’t get me wrong, I am not advocating suicide, but we need a broader picture of our spirit and power, and we need to trust in the unknown.
Getting to trust our body and its messages is super important to developing our own knowing and sovereignty as well. Who says anyone else knows our body better than we do? Politicians and corporations certainly don’t. Do you really need a faulty test to tell you if you’re sick? Have we so lost touch with our bodies? We must feel and sense into them again.
Somehow, in this last horrible year, I have become more aware of so many aspects of myself and society, intellectually and in my gut. I have realized that I have always questioned outer authority, but this questioning is like an unused muscle that has gone lax. Now is the time to exercise this muscle in my own unique way.
Envision a New Future
One way to ease our anxiety in all this is to envision a kinder, community-based world, rather than an authoritarian one. Meditate on what you want to see, not what appears to be happening, not what the outer authorities are envisioning. Raise you vibration into peace, and out of fear as much as possible. Trust your own research, your own discernment. Find others who envision an out-of-the-box, new world.
Connect with your Inner Bull
Instead of being bullied, what if we connected with the essence of bulls? They are independent, strong and unpredictable. They also have power, determination and a firm footing. They are a symbol of fertility, abundance and renewal, so maybe we can use our creativity to birth new worlds.
Think of the astrological sign of Taurus, an earth sign, grounded and stubborn. Taureans are honest, not fond of authority, and they persevere. They are about self-love and sensuality, finding their own uniqueness.
Maybe we need to keep the image of a bull in our minds to develop our own inner power and authority. I know when I see one in a nearby pasture, I feel a sense of awe. They look so proud and peaceful, and they stand on their own.
Merge with Nature
Getting in touch with nature helps us to connect with our source, which gives us peace and strength. Nature involves cycles of life and death, dissolution and decay. It’s time to let go of old structures and ideas, and dream in new ones. Life is about risk, creativity and joy.
Breathe deeply and freely, connect to beauty, and feel wonder. Open your senses and your body to nature. Feel your body. Garden – get your hands in the dirt. Touch nature. Hug each other. Watch birds. Imagine freedom. Feel your soul.
Remember your true nature of spirit, humanity and sovereignty.
About Maggie Marshall
Maggie Marshall helps you remember your true nature of connection, healing and inner power. She guides you through spiritual, body awareness and shamanic experiences.
She lives in Maple Creek, Saskatchewan, Canada near her beautiful tree and deer friends.
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